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My Battle

Honestly it’s been really hard for the last month or so to even get out of bed in the morning.

I’ve just been so tired. So tired of pretending to be happy and pretending that my meds are working.

I wake up everyday on the edge, and the second something makes my day bad I start to think of ending it. Because I’m always just barely hanging on. I’m not sure that I’d say I’m suicidal, but I don’t try to live. I just exist and keep hoping that the next day will be better. But it never is, and I’m getting more and more tired of fighting.

That’s how I ended up here. I need to know I’m not alone in this world. Because I feel like I am. And I’m not sure how to get out of this. I need help. I need friends.



One Comment on “My Battle

  • Hi Jasmine,
    I just saw your post and really hope your life has improved since you wrote it.
    You don’t need to pretend to be happy. That takes way too much energy.
    Tell your doctor the meds aren’t working and you meed help! Be honest with them.
    Do you have a counsellor or a social worker you can talk to?
    You may need a to try a couple to find someone you click with and trust. It will make the most incredible difference in your life. It did for me.
    Please remember you are worth way more than you feel your life has at present.

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